It's ON

LIKE DONKEY KONG!!!!!...oh yeah, i did :)

I have been in such a slump. I have been sick, physically with what turned out to be a whole upper respiratory funk. I'v been depressed and discouraged about being 5 pounds heavier today than when I started my journey Dec. 9th. If you read my previous blog post.. and read my moms comment (i did, thank you mother dearest) then you would know that something has been up with me. Mom knew that my spirits were low and she could hear it even through my written words.. that's why God gave us all mothers, wether by birth or the woman in your life that loves you just because of who you are and for no other reason. I believe we all have that person in our lives. We should all tell them thank you today.. for keeping us grounded and reminding us of our worth and our strength when we have forgotten. Thank you Mama :) I love you!

Now, back to it being ON!
My husband has offered to take me to the gym and wear me out tomorrow. He wants to be my personal trainer and and push me to my limits. He warned me that he wouldn't be easy on me and that I couldn't get mad. I reminded him that I'm not that girl. im not the one who whines in the gym or when it hurts.. Im just not her. now if you hurt my feelings.. that's another story! If anyone says or even hints to the idea that I have too much food on my plate or anything of the nature.. I'm hurt but worse than that I'm MAD! When I get mad people it's not pretty.. and let me clarify.. I don't get mad at the person who has offended me... I get mad at myself.. because I KNOW THEY ARE RIGHT! & the truth HURTS! SO now that I have made this self discovery.. what am I gonna do about it? The only way to find out how big or small a self discovery really is, is to test it out.

SO here's the problem...
I have to find a way to stop making food the center of my universe the center point of entertainment. and for goodness sakes stay focused!!!!

here's the strategy...
I have to make food boring. food=fuel ONLY for at least 6 weeks, that is until March 8th!

Here's the NEW menu:
Breakfast- 1 cup bran cereal with or without banana and 1/2 cup of reduced fat milk. OR (1-2) Fiber One pop tarts, OR (1)Breakfast Bar (not Shoney's, the healthy kind in a wrapper)
Lunch- Ham or turkey sandwhich wheat bread, 1 slice of cheese, lettuce, tomato, pickle and just a dab of mayo. the sandwhich can be substituted for grilled/baked fish or chicken. my side dish will be either steamed veggies or a fresh salad with lowfat dressing.
Dinner: Grilled/Baked fish or chicken with steamed veggies.

**ALL items on the menu are interchangeable** but may not be eaten all at once :)
all beverages will be either water, diet soda, with occasional coffee/ low cal sweeteners only.
I will only allow myself one snack in the evening before or after dinner it must be less than 150 cals (popcicle, pudding, popcorn) **Sunday's are the exception for traditional Breakfast and Lunch, DInner time will go back to "the menu"

WE will not eat dinner while watching TV. We will eat together and talk together.
I will learn what it means that "man does not live off of bread alone, but every word from the Father" matt 4.

I thank God that He keeps showing me the things that I need to be shown.. & I thank God for YOU

love. love. love!